this has been the most shitty year of my life and since it's November, I'm not going to back track thru all my shitty times. I did just find out that I have been "friends" with people that choose to not act as friends. I just found out that my husband, the one that up and left me in February, moved to New Mexico a couple months ago. clearly, the "family" that I married into, that have been acting as my "friends" chose not to mention this.
I have gone out of my way to not be negative about their family member, the one who makes me feel as though my life is ultimately over, I've done nothing but keep them in my life (at their request, not mine).
he has made it abundantly clear that he does not wish to reconcile, he simply left, just to leave, he's done nothing to end this though. I've been so, so patient, the first months, I had hopes, he partied and traveled. the next few months, he did the same. he sold his favorite things, moved all his other things to a city 300+ miles away.....leaving shit at the house, shit I can't move on my own. he just thinks its okay to be married and be single at the same fucking time. when he left, I told him to do something about it, get the paperwork rolling, he didn't do that.....that is where my "hope" came from. in July, he said he would be back in september to get the rest of the bullshit he KNOWS he left, he hasn't even attempted to contact me since then.....and today, his mom accidentally tells me that he moved to New Mexico. how the hell is this ever going to even end?
my response to his mom was to tell him I need signatures from him as soon as possible.
I fucking hate his guts, I have never felt such hatred towards someone.....and I am a hater, full of hate, but never to this extent.
I feel as though I made the biggest mistake of my life even being his friend back in 2002, when we first met. he is the most cowardly, pathetic, drunk, druggie, felonious piece of shit I have EVER associated myself with....and I know a lot of POS people.
the part that angers me the most, is that his life is a fucking dream since he left me....nothing effects that fucking bastard. even as much as his family talks shit and says they hate the choices he has made, they have shown nothing but support to him. nobody ever calls him out, except me, back when we had some communication....maybe that is why he left. he wanted to do and say everything he pleased, with nobody to ever disagree or disapprove....oh, like his dad is with his mom.
fuck this pathetic world and all the fake people in it!
